Writing has always been my passion.
Although, I am still indecisive what kind of writer I am or what type (or kind) of writing I am good at. I discovered I loved to write when I was 8. My mom would ask me and my cousins to write a letter to our uncle who was an OCW, overseas contract worker in Saudi Arabia, back then. We were told that it could be lonely in the desert of Saudi and we can make our uncle happy by writing him a letter, So,, I wrote him tons of letters and I did enjoy it.
So it all started with writing letters - in addition to writing letters to my uncle who worked abroad for almost half of his life, I found myself writing letters regularly --- to my friend Adrian who migrated to US when were 17, to a student I have met in one of the journalism contests I joined when I was in my senior year in high school and I even wrote a fan mail to actress Donna Cruz, sportscaster Anthony Suntay and then Ginebra player Vince Hizon to tell them how I really loved them back then. (They all wrote back to me :) ).
To validate my skills in writing, I became an editor-in-chief of The Nazarene, our high school newspaper. Then, after I graduated College, I became a producer for GMA-7, and wrote investigative stories. I also wrote non-serious stuff for Kids On Q, an informative kids show. I wrote for different shows - talk shows, entertainment show, investigative shows. For the most part, I wrote in my language - Filipino. But also got the chance to write in English for Kids on Q when we had to reformat the show.
Then, it made me confused.
I am in the United States now and happily married. I left writing for quite some time now to do a leasing consultant job. The new job made me realize another set of skills I have, my people skills. I think I am charming, sincere and naturally kind - some people might contest that! But anyway, on my day off, like today, I could not help but think, what am I really bound to do? Somehow, I feel that I should go back to writing. However, I am asking myself, what am I really good at? Am I a journalist? A blogger? An investigative writer? An entertainment writer? A PR writer?
Or maybe I should focus more on my current career as a leasing consultant?
Actually, I do not know. That's the reason why the title of this is "Writing what you feel." I acknowledge that there are moments in our life when we feel all sorts of emotions, we get confused. We do not know what to do. We know our worth but we do not know how to let others know. We feel lost. We feel guilty.
But I am grateful. Because I have this avenue. To write them all down here in my blog.
Does this make me a blogger?
- Pink Biticon Howell (Yes, I just changed my name)
March 29, 2016
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